okay to be honest with you, if you ask me about what “carpe diem type shit” actually means, i’d spew some amalgamation of “seize the day” or “go do shit and be doing shit” vibes that you would probably understand but not actually feel

i think the most important part of the carpe diem type shit is not the actual outcome or goal that you’re trying to achieve, but actually how we feel in those moments that leads up to whatever it is we’re trying to chase.

last weekend i went to parameter, which is this underground party that happens over the course of a weekend here at public works. public works is a cultural institution for the underground here in san francisco. parameter is the forefront of those underground shows. this year was the 10 year anniversary of whatever dream nick had when he said he wanted to do this.

now, I have not met nick yet, but the tales you would hear about him and the way people would talk about him is downright inspiring. you know that he as an individual is someone who works hard and cares about something so much it ends up being more than if he was to do it alone. i like to use the term “do it for the culture” to denote either the events or individuals that embody wanting something so much you will do anything to get shit done.

i feel like after parameter, (opfpwgi [only people from parameter would get it]), something clicked in my brain, this feeling of wanting to do something in my life related to music. it’s like whatever music i was listening to this weekend, decide to grow something inside me until it festered as an idea in my psyche.

the only words I had to really explain this feeling was “carpe diem type shit.”